Oh man, I have a feeling this blog will be long. haha

   Well to explain the differences I could make, i need to explain where I'm at right now. Which is actually a REALLY good place, and It's kind of throwing me off. Right now God is prety much doing AMAZING thigns for me ALL THE TIME! That's never happened before. Normally I always have something to work on, or something wrong, you know? But right now, I'm stressed of course, but nothing I'm not able to handle, and God's presence in my life latley has been HUGE, and he's answering prayers like crazy! and I'm honestly kind of confused about it. I'm sitting here like "Okay God, this all great, don't get me wrong, but why are you doing this? Is somthing really bad gonna happen soon, so your just trying to make up for it or somthing?" Haha. Latley tho, God has really showed me how he loves me no matter what, I always thought I needed to do perfect things and know everything about him, but he just showed me that none of that matters, which has been AWESOME. But it also throws me off alot, I constantly feel like God is doing all these awesome things, and I'm not doing anything, I need to do something to pay him back!  But really, he just wants me to sit and enjoy his presence, and love him, and BE loved. Which is wierdly harder than I thought. lol.

   SO with all that. I'm honestly not sure what difference I need to make, I'm getting everything caught up, so that I can spend oober amounts of time with God before I leave, and I'm even spending a good amount with him now, and I LOVE spending all this time with him, its absolutly amazing, and i'm learning SO much. So I really don't know anythign different to do.

   But opportunitys, am I missing any? hmmm, I would say, not that I know of. I'm still getting to do alot, but of course missing out on a few things since I will be gone, but nothing huge. I think God's opportunity for me is this.

   And anything I have lost focuss on because of this trip. I would say school.. maybe. But I also feel like my focuss is SUPPOSE to be on Nicaragua and pursuing him, which is what I have been doing.

   SOoo, yeah this blog assignment is a little hard/confusing to me. Because i feel like I SHOULD have some things to change about myself, or I SHOULD be missing somthing, or my focuss should be wrong. But.. I don't think it is. Ahh!! So confusing! lol. I can honestly say i THINK I'm on the right track, doing what I'm suppose to pursuing what I need to. But I also feel ike I'm TOO happy, and things are TOO good is that bad? I'm just sort of in a resting place with God at this time in my life I think..