hmmm, Would I rather be served or serve others?
About 3 months ago, I would say I would rather be served. Being an only child, I admit, I'm very spoiled. And when I didn't believe I was even more spoiled, and being spoiled is deffinatly hard to get out of once you have been in it. But after LOTS of praying throughout my faith in the last year, God has answered my prayer. So I think at this point in my life I would rather serve others, just because throughtout my whole life i only wanted to be served, and now that God has shown me the joy in serving, i can't get enough of it!! I had never felt the joy in giving somthing up for someone (which sounds horrible, but it's the truth). Once I became a believer I saw how so many people could just give so much, and even be happy about it! I couldn't wrap my head around that. So i asked God, continually, to sofften my heart, and help me to give to people who need it, and not only feel the joy that they feel but the pain they felt before(Sounds crazy, but i wanted to feel others pain, so that it would help me to help them). I wanted my heart to soften for them, and I wanted to help them. So God answered my prayers! and now I CAN give to people and feel the joy that I've been longing for! So I would rather serve than be served.
BUT on the other hand. Being served is okay too(to an extent). I think of it as, when I wanted to be able to serve someone, that meant that someone else had to be served. So if some one else wantes to serve me, to feel the joy of serving and to help out, then I would be okay with. We all have to stand in both positions at one point.
Soo, I think that would be my whole view on it, hope that all makes sense!
God Bless!
Katie
